The future took over my mind as clouds filled the sky.
On a Dark Road Home (3/2/17)
“The future has been on my mind a lot lately. It’s just starting to freak me out how fast time is passing, you know? There are moments that it still feels like freshman year and I’m sitting in her old room; figuring out what my “color” is. I mean, I guess if it were my senior year it wouldn’t bug me so much. I’d be ready to leave. I should be excited. It’s been getting to the point that I willingly cut people off. People I’ve known for years or people I just met. Either way- if they become toxic. Although, with that being said- there are certain people I want to stay. Good people. And I guess that’s what scares me. I’ve been so independent and now it’s so scary to think about how the future could be without them. I want to keep you around for as long as I can. I’m so very grateful for you and your goofy self.”
In the loneliest of times; during late nights with only my thoughts to keep me company, I find myself reciting “Oh the Places You’ll Go.” It’ll go on for hours. Word for word.
You know, there’s something about the way words can be strung together. It becomes more than just ink on a page or letters on a screen. Sometimes, you can see it right in front of you. Words being lived. If it touches your mind and soul, why not grab hold of it for as long as you can? Use the moment wisely. For you may only get it once.
“But on you will go though the weather be foul. On you will go though your enemies prowl. On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl. Onward up many a frightening creek. Though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak. On and on you will hike and I know you’ll hike far and face up to your problems, whatever they are.” -Dr. Seuss.